With Me...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQODSqah59U

Just Because...

I've been alone for so long
Forgotten by the world forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay
So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you
I miss
God I miss waking up beside you 

At night I cling to you I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake up and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day
But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair
I miss god I miss waking up beside you 

I've been alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone
But I memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body
I miss god I miss waking up beside you

I can still see the way your legs entwined....

I was at this show, and saw this song live for the first time again in almost 20 years...  It still makes me cry, especially now because being sober makes it so much more real....


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VrpRwURjDhY

still and until i die...

even now, just a photograph of you smashes my heart into a thousand million little pieces... and nobody is here to put me back together again...

I was...

https://youtu.be/mahWLqnxtpg

Hey Anny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--4nhS1hdvk

yeah

the lines around my wrists

are there to prove

i exist

missing you

look into my eyes

but i cant change if jts only in my mind

and  i love you

but i dont have the right

ans i wanted you so bad tonight...

some days i miss you so fucking much that my soul cries louder than my tears...

yeah

what ifs plauge a mind

like maybe i knew better

you did stupid

but

you
fucked

that

up

man..

Pinky Promise..


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eWJmN8D820

Missing

It's hard to say

It's hard to think

But

I miss you...

I told you so

I'm ok

I'm doing alright

But....

I miss you

I'm doing just fine

I'm gonna be great

Not ungreat

Like i was too you

If you traded every "I'm sorry"

That I feel inside

For a kiss

I would live the rest of my life

constantly kissing you beautiful

face

heart

soul

body


I miss you

Please

Miss me too

And give me

just 10 minutes

to touch your lips

to mine

and feel
that feeling
i'm scared ill never feel again

l
o
v
e
.
.
.

This, this is for you....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jn9Rk-Fb1hE

still...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6_aEsFwQ9s

end days

sometimes
i
still
miss
you
and
your
body
pressed
tightly
against
mine..

yeah

https://youtu.be/LiIurG0gwrE

This eve...

Tonight i shall dream

a dream

A dream of every night

where i fear for dawn

because then

these sorry arms

find themselves empty

and still without you...



To miss a certain kiss
is akin
to missing the shine
of the sun
on a smiling face....

a plea

friends who never started as friends

can become friends again

then if they are lucky

maybe they can not be

just be lovers again

but

real lovers

mind
body
soul

something real
i wanted to offer

accept?

Still..

"Why did you sleep so late?

"Why did you sleep so long?

she asked.

"Oh, I dunno," he said

"I was just tired, I guess," he said.

He thought to himself
slowly turned his
head
to wipe a growing tear

and whispered so low
only the angels could hear

"I sleep because, that's where
i get to see her again. 
Get to hold her
again.
Sleep, is the place
i wish i could be and
Heaven seems so
Overly far away
Lost for a wretch
Like me
Yearning for one more kiss"

sigh..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3a71swB_DqY

This isn't a poem, it's a thought..

I miss you..

I tried to pretend

it wasn't you

it was just

you know

"us"

but im wrong

It's YOU

I MISS